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Some More Changes

I am thinking about doing some more changes….clearly last night I started. Playing around with some new blog names…some thing like Life from Concentrate or something like that, hahaha. Still looking for the computer/camera cord so I can start uploading gobs of new photos…I love photography  and am a super amateur  but I am a super amateur writer, too, lol. Kinda thinking about possibly opening up comments but might not for a few more months Since I am due this month and don’t want to face comments with new baby hormones, lol.

I don’t know. I am just trying to decide where I want to take the blog I guess, where I will actually post more and regularly  Normally winter is my big posting season, but this winter has had so many things going on and been so boring at the same time that I guess I have not felt like I have had a ton of blogging material. Or whatever.

Anyways.

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Posted by on December 31, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

Musing on life…

Once again I reorganize, I trade this for that, learn how I have grown to despise more of my things, learn how quieting and relaxing it can be to merely have what one truly desires. A crock-pot in the corner, baskets of food upon the counter. I strive towards that heavenly plane just past boredom where the creativity of the mind flourishes. The quiet peace of solitude and serenity one finds when lost to nature, abandoned on the banks of some long-forgotten stream. The place where one no longer desires more, where a human can be capable of true happiness, appreciating life for what it is…the chance to share and learn and grow, grow ever closer to the Lord which created us in His splendor. It is scary to grow beyond ourselves. It hurts to grow, it is terrifying to reach into the dark recesses of our minds, not knowing quite what we shall find there. Once a person steps into that abyss, however, a joy and peace unrivaled is found to be lurking beyond that fear.

This release and simple beauty is something I needed young. A budding hoarder, I acquired things carelessly and treasured that which was killing me. I clung to the false security of items, of food, of money. I collected soaps and makeups and magazines and books, gathered them to me in great piles of “joy”. To be sure, the collection DID lend me a sort of joy, a giddy happiness which I adored. I, the child who had not been rescued, took pleasure in the rescue of the “lost”, those things discarded for newer, yard sale finds and trophies from other people’s garbage piles. I became known as The Person to Give Old Stuff To. I loved it. I treasured the trash and vowed to use it in some way. I was soon overwhelmed by the sheer volume of my joy, joy that turned to sorrow when my piles would become soiled, discarded, destroyed  I became angry at anyone who suggested I had too much. Clearly, I didn’t have enough…didn’t they see this?! Couldn’t they understand?! If only I could put it all in boxes so it would be safe…and so I did.

Time and time again saw me boxing things up, stacking my treasures. That didn’t hurt. I still had them, after all. I had no fear of losing my hard-gathered trinkets, my old scraps of paper, my earrings missing their mates and clothes I detested but might use for a blanket someday. The pain only manifested when the time came to go through those old things and discard that which I no longer needed. Often, the stress was too much and I would end up leaving everything behind in a desperate bid to escape the insanity that was breeding in my closets and spare spaces.

The remedy for my malady was deceptively simple: stop acquiring new things. Get rid of those things which were superfluous and learn again, as I had when a child, to be content in the wanderings of my mind.

What is truly necessary? Warmth. Sustenance. Nothing beyond that is needed, only desired. Warmth itself is relative. No one needs to be kept a balmy seventy-two degrees Fahrenheit ..we merely prefer it. One might argue that as humans we also have the need of mental stimulation, but that is like saying the earth needs to rotate on it’s axis in order to sustain life. It is not important to proclaim or even provide for it…as humans, mental stimulation is something we hunger for and will create in absence of even the most basic “schooling”. Simply being in community and living day-to-day creates many opportunities for growth which are only stifled by the vast amount of artificial stimulation we have created and injected into our lives and the lives of our children.

So what, in life, is needed? Why don’t we turn that thought upside down and instead question…what is hurtful? What detracts from life, what makes it more painful than it need be? In today’s world it is popular to claim that what is good for one may be bad for another. Simultaneously  we are taught that to deviate from the norm of our culture’s expectations is tantamount to insanity, child abuse, and perhaps even the evil of leading other’s astray. This can be confusing to both those who feel no need to seek greater and greater heights as well as those who would throw off the shackles they perceive and vault into the sky unhindered. Where is the line, the place to toe? Where does free will and autonomy end and consideration for others begin? How far can we go? Where must we stop? I am infuriated by such questions without answer. I would give a solid one to each, if I could. Alas, I cannot, and the strain is greater than I like to think of rules others should live by. Thank God for the Bible, eh?

Alas, my tortured brain continues to whirl and dance in my head, in my heart. I know not what to make of life, of death, of stress and relaxation. I know only that for myself, peace and quiet are both my greatest enemy and my most trusted, dear friend. Peace and quiet in my head, in my thoughts. Peace and quiet in what I see. Peace and quiet in the noises I hear.

So I strain on, ever onward towards that blissful emptiness, that uncomfortable quiet, that ignorant calm. and I look around and am satisfied with today.

 
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Posted by on December 30, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

DIY Road

Inspired by a post on the Imagination Tree, I buckled down and got another project done.

Right now I have now pictures…:( because my camera cord is at the moment MIA.

BUUUUT….

I can tell you I picked up a piece of black foam board from the Dollar Tree and made the road pieces suggested above…and have enough left for a future project for me…which will be a quilted foam board. 😀

I was disappointed with the end result. The paper covering the foam started coming off and it was really hard to cut through without bending it badly. I should have done what I knew I should have done and gotten out the razors, but I didn’t want to go outside. Again, right now I have no pictures of my own project, but in the links above you will find a super great tutorial on making them, with amazing pictures. 😀

I WILL post pics as soon as I find that silly cord, though!

 
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Posted by on December 15, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

The basic floorplan…

when I am able.

 

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Posted by on December 14, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

Trying to get in the habit…

… of blogging more often. I have a list of drafts that just need to be finished and put up, but there is so much going on (haha, yeah right!) I always forget to get on here, or when I do, I get distracted and decide to come back and finish “later” which we all know is super effective at actually getting things done, right? LOL.

Lately, I have been doing  a lot of reorganizing and culling out things, and thinking up new projects. For instance, I am in the process of gathering free, old pillows for a pillow-mattress project I saw on Pintrest, hahaha. I need about 16 total, and I know one person says they have at least 6 for me, if I can get them. I repainted my floor, built an idea tree, and began putting together my birth kit. I moved things around on the walls so that everything is still there but not really where it’s cluttering up the visual space, and came up with some new super-cool ideas for hidden storage, lol.

My goal is that very shortly, I will be able to drive off from any given location with less than a half-hour’s notice. Right now it takes a lot longer than that because things are set up poorly, we have too much stuff, and so lots of things end up on the floor, whether we put them there or they FALL there en route. I also want things culled to the point of being able to keep the “in sight”space reasonably clear. I have great ideas for what to do with the space when we have the green to do it, but that could be a while in the future and I refuse to leave things be until then, hahaha.

Anyways, you can totally expect a good chunk of blog posts in the next couple of days, I think, probably (but hopefully not) followed by another hiatus.

And for your viewing pleasure: taken this past summer, the two cutest kids in the world, hydrating. 😀 That in the background was our old house, hahaha.

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Posted by on December 12, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

I’m REALLY Good with Computers…

Somehow I broke mine. I mean, I really broke it. The hard-drive (apparently) was destroyed. What do I know…that’s what I was told, haha. So anyways, I was sans computer for a while so that a computer geek could fix it. 😀 I love computer geeks.

Except when they are scolding me. But I digress.

Anyways, I am a little surprised to see that with a different hard-drive but the same browser, my blog look different! Not bad different, but nothing like the layout I had before. 😛 I am really having to adjust to having a totally different computer, I guess. So I lost all my old pictures that weren’t online somewhere, which kinda sucks but it’s not the end of the world. I had too many, I guess.

In awesomer news…I got my kitchen out of storage! When we moved into the last van, we had no space and no way to cook at the moment, so we put everything into my MIL’s storage unit. Then we hooked up our stove and fridge, and had no way to get into storage, and so we bought some cheap things from Goodwill. And then we bought our camper-van, complete with a water tank and oven and everything… and still had no way to get there, so I bought a couple baking dishes from the Dollar Tree. And I started paying rent again to have an elec hook-up…and I missed my crockpot. And I learned how to cook in tiny batches to fit in the dinky pan I had, and missed my cast iron one.

And last night I got a special delivery!!! All my stuff (which of course wasn’t much, lol) was taken out of storage and delivered to me by surprise!!!! My two bread pans, my whisk, my crockpot, my frying pan, my soup pans. 😀 Everything.

You have no idea how happy that makes me. 😀

And I am excited to share the things I am making for Christmas for family. I really am not a fan of Christmas for a lot of reasons, but there is a big thing going on this year and I decided to go with it. Someday I’ll post more about why I don’t like it. So I decided that since I was given money to spend, I would get some things together that are totally functional and fun that I have been wanting to do for a while, but that resources have limited me in. 😀 I can’t wait!

So now that you all know I am back, I will cease my rambling and get back to dreaming of when I go shopping for the first time in a few days. 😀

 
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Posted by on December 2, 2012 in Uncategorized